Do it for people you love 

sacrifices aren’t sacrifices

mine aren’t either

i am not the type to write journals and shit

but i’ve been, and i’ve decided to move it to tumblr since it’s a lot easier.

And i got no fucking followers, so this shit is realllll good.

Gottta write u know„ I need a reminder… that some of thoughts i had today

were yesterday’s. I learned over time, to never look back into my decisions, and im usually good at that. So i should keep writing, to remind myself to write some new shit, to think about some New shit every fucking day. Gotta move forward, and I’m not scared of it.

What are you running for?

back in the 80’s in almost all communities, compare to now, NOBODY absolutely NO ONE ran and exercised in the morning. It was a very rare sight to see. One day in a rich white neighborhood, a man was seen jogging around. As weeks passed, people began to notice, they began to talk, words went around, and some people would even get up early to see this man run around the neighborhood. This man became the talk of the town. They didn’t understand why he was running. One morning, one dude did a favor for the whole neighborhood, and approached the man during his jog, and asked, “Why are you running everyday? What are you running for?” The man answered him, “I had a heart attack couple weeks ago, and my doctor told me if I don’t do this, I will die”

This story sounds almost too boring…simple…and obvious right? 

But no seriously, think about it.. This kid got up every fucking morning, put on his shoes, and ran across the neighborhood, with one thing in his mind. To survive. He was running for his life. If he didn’t lose weight, he knew he Would die. He was Running. For. His. Life. That is powerful. 

Running. It’s a choice. A obvious choice, that not a lot of us follow through in this life time. I had a phase of mad discouragement. It will always come and go. I saw what is front of me and I saw it all wrong. Because it didn’t satisfy my ambition, I started walking with my head down. I had a lot of “pauses” as well, but those moments happened for a reason, and I know now it’s all a process. And my negativity born from my greed, was foolish. That isn’t me. I refuse to let it wire my thoughts and commands.

I want to run for my LIFE. Like a fat kid jogging, knowing if he doesn’t run, he’ll die. Imagine the strength and the motivation that is to run for..With life on the line, We can do Anything. We can overcome the most impossible. All these little things aren’t what it seems before it. I want to be in control of my life, unmoved by anything, a man of actions and deep thoughts, and I don’t want to get side tracked anymore. I still don’t know exactly what I want to be when I grow up, or where my life is heading.. but that’s alright. As long as i’m running for my life every day. So Hey, it’s going to be alright. Let’s run for our lives, Let’s try our best errrrrrday.

Do you know what the fuck love is fuckers?

it’s simple, no matter how fucking ugly they become to you, no more how much hatred they pour out, no matter how low they fall, no matter how much they push and break you away, you see through all these fucking masks and believe that the person you fell in love with is still fucking there. but people change dont they?

Fuck that reality. it’s a fucking illusion before this, because it simply does not matter what you do, or who you gon be with in the future. Before what you call this.. a memory, It does Not Fucking Matter if you don’t fucking want this shit. 

that’s what unconditional love is. you care about them more than you care about yourself, so you bear through it all and accept? No, you fucking embrace everything. There is no strength like it, and i’ll keep on praying for you girl but don’t fucking threaten me or hate me when i’m wishing you the very best every fucking second. if u have another person doing the same, tell me that fools name 

Cuz nigga, ur right. one day i might regret the things i have done, but one day you will fucking realize how real this nigga fucking was, and how real this fucker loved you. Mine is different from them, Mine is different from yours

cuz i’m strong, i’m stronger than many, but i do let some get the best of me, but i’m only loving for the moment. it’s bittersweet, and ima enjoy till the last drop of it all cuz ours was a little too sweet

so babe, why dont you try to look at it differently while it lasts

i wish you the very best happy valentines girl. Happy Birthday.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2NsVd1RGsPI

My Asian mother laughed at me for hours.

Anesthesia is the best fuking high. it even makes her laugh even if she hates the fact that i’m high outta my fucking mind 

If you haven’t experienced it yet, awwwww.

Sucks it only lasts for 30minutes..

Life is a paradise atm ;)